After five years, there is no easy way to move on. Things will inevitably remind you of him, will make you realize that your life has changed immensely in a matter of seconds and you'll constantly be reminded that things will never be the same.
Whoever said break ups were easy for the one who initiates it, was wrong. It was a decision I had contemplated for some time, knowing it was in both of our best interests, but it was never easy. I delayed and delayed hoping that the feelings would go away, or somehow I could sleep through the whole break up, move on, and find someone new process. Well, I'm in the middle of the moving on phase and I'm wide awake.
I'm sad for the end of that chapter because I thought it would spill over into a whole new book. However, I don't make the rules and I can't predict the future. So, here I am, scared and excited to see what the next chapter brings.
Thank you all for the support through my craziness.